You make it real for me

I don’t understand anything He does in my life. I think if I did, I wouldn’t continually need a Savior… which we all know is definitely not true.



Troy and I talked about the differences between denominations this week, and he finally put into words what I’ve been thinking for a long time without being able to express it: Salvation is a relationship. I was saved, I am saved, I will be saved. I had a relationship with Christ, I have a relationship with Christ, I will have a relationship with Christ. In order to continue a relationship with someone (be it Jesus, a spouse, best friend, etc.) I can’t make a choice to start the relationship and then do nothing to further it. It isn’t a true relationship then.

I know Romans states ‘nothing can separate us from the love of God’, and that several other verses point toward the belief that once a sinner repents and consciously decides to take up Christ’s yoke then nothing can take away that decision; however, Hebrews 6 and Hebrews 10:26-31 say something different. I just don’t think God would have made me the way He did if I only had to make one choice at age 12 and never grow in my knowledge of Him. I have been struggling with the belief in ‘once saved, always saved’ from my southern Baptist upbringing, and I think God shook the cobwebs out of my head and showed me something I hadn’t thought of before. It was pretty cool… and it all happened on a drive through Port au Prince!

I will never have it figured all out, and maybe even my understanding of salvation will change, but for now I am celebrating joyously because God doesn’t expect me to get it! Too bad I had to move to a place with 84% humidity and even higher temperatures to learn that lesson.

I love living in Haiti, regardless of the weather and missing my family and friends back home. I got to be part of a squatting birth on Tuesday and watched God’s miracle of childbirth firsthand. If only Eve hadn’t eaten that fruit…